For about two years, I was on medication Nortryptiline since 2013. It was very effective in giving a nice restful sleep without waking in the night.
About two weeks ago, I decided I wanted no more of it.
My reasoning was some mornings it was difficult to wake up, and I really did not have to wake up more than one time a morning, if that makes sense!
I noticed some nights I did not take it and I woke up easily!
So, I stopped cold turkey.
The first few days were ok, nothing out of the ordinary.
Starting on day 5, I felt off... I thought it was allergies or sinus pressure. So I put myself back on the allergy regime. No relief.
I then resorted to tylenol and excedrin. Sort of helped...... I then had to take Sumatriptan, helped somewhat.
For a weekend, it was a struggle managing the pain.
I almost wimped out and went back to the NORT..... but I had already gone 8 days and hoped it would finally ease up.
Suddenly, I had a hard time falling asleep. As in taking me longer than 30-60 minutes. Usually, I know I am asleep in minutes! I thought this a gift but now I know it was assisted with the medication.
So the last several days, I am not having restful sleep... waking too early (3am) and not able to go to sleep. I was on 3-4 hours of sleep for a few days.
I had a break through I think this morning!
Yesterday was ROUGH!
I woke at 5am..... after fall asleep after midnight, 1am...... I wanted to sleep more. I knew 4 hours a night was not right for me for several days.
I reasoned, ok, I wake up now, and I go to bed early tonight..... easily, right?
I had a full day yesterday.
I was down in Santa Cruz for business.... Got there about 1pm and all was good so far. After I saw my client, things went wonky.
I needed to go to the bathroom so bad. I ended up driving around in a daze for about an hour.
I wanted to take Benny to the beach to wear him out. He was being so good after being kenneled in the van for over 4 hours while I was working. On top of this, I have not eaten, I have no appetite but I know I should.... I don't eat.
I wanted to preview my friends' beachhouse listing and also periscope it. By the time I got to do this, it was 4:30pm on a FRIDAY. Who wants to see business at this time? Oh well, I didn't want to overthink it and did it anyway.
Generally, I think I have good energy on video....... doing this broadcast, I was a zombie. I knew it but did it anyway. I knew it would still be helpful to me in learning.
I drive us home.... I am so wiped out. I lay on the couch hoping to fall asleep, this is about 7pm. I cannot sleep........ so frustrating. I turn on the tv. I turn on social media and periscope. I turn on podcast. I turn everything off. I do breathing excercises and relaxation... I want to quiet my mind. It was a challenge..... nothing.
I go to bed with sand all over ... I cannot physically get up to change or brush off the sand. TIRED.
No sleep... I start to think negatively......
Finally, about 10pm.... I doze off a few times..... I know it was about 11pm I do fall asleep! SUCCESS!
I wake at 5:20am....... sigh......... should i just wake up? Should I try to talk Mig into going to the DeAnza Flea Market.. sigh... I'd like to fall alseep....
I DO!
I wake around 8am...... I feel ok but sleeping this late, I need it.
I finally wake at 9am ish....... I feel rested.
Right now, I am on the couch, I still want to squeeze in more rest.
The science of sleep. I am now curious about it. I thought for the last couple of years, I had sleep down!
As it turns out, I need to learn it now that I am not being sleep assisted. The sleep assist was nice.... such restful sleep.
I hope to find that again in a natural way.
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